Hey guys,
Time for my daily blog post, eh?
I’m doin’ pretty well here. Outreach is coming up in a few weeks, and we’re starting to direct our attention towards it in prayer/meetings etc.. I’ve been a little apprehensive about the whole ordeal, and haven’t really been sure whether or not God has been wanting me to go. My “one-on-one,” Tom, told me he was having his quiet time this morning and felt strongly that God was telling him he wants me there. I think that was the confirmation I’ve been praying for. I’m still praying about it though, because there are still a few things I’m on still on the fence about. God’s working them out though. This past week has been my best week here so far, spiritually. I’ve been learning how to rely more on faith than feelings in my walk with God, and I’m finding that it’s a much more rewarding approach. I still feel like I’m on a rollercoaster with it though.
This past week’s speaker, Brent Chambers, spoke on worship and prophecy the whole week. It was cool having him because he was constantly prophesying over people, and was very in tune with the Holy Spirit. On friday he spent the whole lecture time prophesying over each person in the class. When it was my turn the first thing he said was, “this is serious. And I don’t think I’ve ever used the word serious in any of my prophecies before.” He said that he saw a vision of God digging a hole, a really deep hole, and that hole was the foundation for a large structure, which was why the hole had to be so deep. He said that God hasn’t been rushing with things, but has been taking his time to make sure that everything was done thoroughly. he saw that I was on the first floor now, and all the work trucks were surrounding the site, waiting for God to give them their “work permits.” He touched on a bunch of other little things too, and said that he wouldn’t be surprised to see really big things out of me, but it was completely dependant on how much I leaned back into God. Oh, and he said that God doesn’t want me to be a lawyer or doctor or anything. Which I guess meant that He doesn’t want me to be into my career for the money, which could be confirmation for my call being in music. I’ve been praying a lot about going to the music school at MorningStar in the fall, and still haven’t really felt anything one way or the other, but that could be the beginning of an answer.
Hmm.. I don’t really know what else.. I’m sorry I haven’t been updating you guys. I’m finding that I’m not really the blogging type, and on the rare occasion that time permits me to even start a post, my mind goes blank and I can’t think of anything to say. It also hasn’t been ultra-eventful around here. We basically eat, get lectured, drink, more lectures, sleep, lecture. Oh, and worship thrown in there every few days. I’m somewhat disappointed with the level of focus put on actual worship, here. The students lead it, which is cool, but it’s definitely put on the backburner, which is ironic since this is primarily a worship dts.
The guy next week is suppossedly the most intense speaker so far. He’s speaking on the Lordship of Christ, and on the last day will be taking us through the four stations of the cross (which will apparently take 12+ hours) and he can sense anything you have in your life that isn’t right, and he’ll get in your face and, like, grab your shirt and yell at you about it… Not sure how well that’s going to go over, but I’m still excited to see what’s gonna happen.
Alright, well I’ve been typing for too long, and dunno what else to say right now.
I miss and love you guys,
-Ben
